Gain

Well I knew that it would happen someday but I didn't think it would happen this quickly.  I gained weight this week :(  (1lb)  It’s a real sucky feeling but I have no one to blame but myself!  For the 4 days this past week I didn't get in enough protein and I know a big key to my weight loss is getting in 60+g of protein EVERYDAY.  I also took in a lot more carbs then I usually do and I didn't make it to the gym in two weeks now.  I was sick one week and then the next I just didn't go because I would have only been able to go one day since the rest we were out of town.  So like I said, My Fault all the way!  I KNOW what I need to be doing now I must just do it!  For whatever reason it seems that now I can "see" myself and my excuses better than I used to!  I guess before surgery I chose to not see and now I chose to see.  By making excuses I am just hurting myself and I don't want to do that!  I WANT to be healthy and lose all my weight, I WANT to feel good in my own skin and I WANT to be physically fit!  I can only do those things if I Choose to eat the right things and I go to the gym!  Today is a new day and I'm going to Choose the right way!

Every had a "Fat" Day?

Well I think I can officially say that today I am having a SKINNY day today!!  I didn't think I would ever hear myself say those words!!  Finally decided to get off my butt and put clothes on and we all were going to run to the store.  Went into the closet and grabbed a pair of jeans, well they didn't fit, WAY too big!  So I grabbed another pair and once again they were too big!  Tried the third pair one which is a pair I've been holding onto for sometime now because they were too small, yep  They FIT!!!  Seemed just a tiny tight but not much.  I still can't believe that I stood there in the closet just looking at my clothes going OMG I have no clothes and for the first time it was because everything was TOO BIG!!!!!!!!!!!  It was such a GREAT feeling!!!! BUT at the same time I'm Oh crap, I have no clothes to wear and I don't want to buy any because I'm still loosing weight! LOL  Such a double edged sword!

LARGE!!

Met with my surgeon this morning for my 3 month post-op appointment.  A few weeks ago I had all my labs drawn (all 10 vials of them!!) and everything was back and OMG I can't believe it, it was all GREAT!!!  NO Supplements at all!! WOOHOO!!!  Still have to keep up with my protein and also my daily vitamin but otherwise nothing else!!  She also said she was very happy with my progress and everything was great!  I also went and saw the NUT today and she also was very happy with my progress!  She looked up on her charts and says my "goal" weight should be 152 so MY goal is 150!  Today at the doctors office I weighed in at 192.7 but of course I am following my scale at home!  So after all the good news this morning I decided to go a "treat" myself with new clothes! hehe  The main point was to look at bras because they are shrinking :(  I'm not happy about this!  I didn't go through all that pain from having a reduction 5 years ago to totally loosing them now UGH!  Since my reductin I've been a D cup but it seems as if I might be a C cup now :(  Okay, I can deal with that but they better not move anymore!!  So I figured what the hey, I'll try on other stuff while I'm here!  I found my brown knee high boots FINALLY and even better was they were on sale for TEN DOLLARS!!!!!!  WOOHOO!!  I also grabbed another pair of tights and another pair of workout pants, that have a drawstring so they should last me longer!  The crazy part was I found a super cute dress and I remember Shane saying something about me wearing more dresses so I figured I would try it on.  I grabbed the XL and went to try it on.  It fit okay, seemed a little big so I figured I might as well try the Large and just see how much more I have to go until I get into it.  OMFG IT FIT!!!!!!!!!!!  It didn't just fit, it fit WELL!!!!  I was in a 2X when I started my journey just a mere 3 months ago and now I'm in a Large!!  HOW FREAKING AWESOME!  I also got a cute "v day" shirt that was also a large!!!  So I'll take the size large even if it means my boobies are shrinking!! hehe

Hmmmmm

I've been struggling a little when it comes to food lately!  First I need to make myself branch out more.  I want to try things I haven't had in a while but at the same time I'm scared! I hate that I'm scared!  I know that if I just take a bite and chew chew chew I shouldn't have any problems with anything but it still scares me.  Also I've really been struggling with wanting to eat more :(  I don't know exactly what is causing this but I feel like I want to keep eating.  The other night we went to the bowling alley and french fries sounded good.  They don't usually sound good and don't usually taste good either but I wanted them so we got some (I already had 90+g of protein for the day) and OMG they were FABLOUS with ketchup all over them!!  I ate like 4 of them and was STUFFED.  I WANTED MORE!!!!!!!  The taste was so good I wanted to continue that but I physcially couldn't and I know that is exactly why I had this surgery but the "fights" I have with myself are just crazy sometimes.  I know I am doing a good job and I know this was exactly what I wanted and needed and I will continue to have to adjust different parts of my life with food for the rest of my life but some days I just want to be "normal".  Then I remember that my "normal" equaled fat and I don't want to be fat!

3 months!!

Today I am officially three months post-op! YAY!!  It's been a crazy journey but I am still so happy with my decision to do surgery!  I feel better then I have in YEARS and I know it's going to only get better!  I have my 3 month appointment later this week with my doc and I've already had all my labs drawn so hopefully they'll be back by then so I can see if I am deficent in anything.  I know I'm not the best about taking my vitamin everyday but I hope that hasn't caused me any harm???  We'll see!!  I'm to a point now where I can usually eat about 3 oz of meat at a time with about 1/4 C of veggies and a bite or two of a starch but most times I don't even make the starch!  I still haven't tried pasta yet but we did find an Adkins brand one that I think I might try soon!  I am also so surprised at myself for doing so well with soda!  I've been really craving it but I just keep telling myself about how bad it's going to hurt and I'm a big baby and don't want any pain! hehe
Okay, so I am offically down 51.6 pounds total in 3 months and 2 weeks because that was when I started the pre-op diet.  Since actual surgery I am down 43.8 pounds!! WOOHOO!!!  I am over half way to my goal and even though I don't want to pressure myself I would love to see that "magic" number by summer time!!!  I know it's possible but I also know that the body can do crazy things to us sometimes!  I want to continue to just "work" my sleeve and live a happy, healthy lifestyle!

Ice Cream!!

We had to put the new ice cream bowl in the freezer over night so we finally made the ice cream today!  It was Yummy!!  I used the mint chip recipe from "The world according to eggface"!  1 cup of milk, 2 scoops of vanilla protein powder, 1/8t mint extract, 1/8t gree food coloring and 2 sugarfree pepermint patties!!  Using the new attachment was cool and SUPER easy too!!  I can't wait to try the peanutbutter cup one next! hehe

I bought

An Ice Cream attachment for my Kitchen Aid so I can make Protein Ice Cream!!! WOOHOO!!  I've really been craving Ice Cream so I finally had my husband go and buy some, but my sleeve didn't like that!  I wasn't sick or anything but "she" was talking to me for HOURS after I ate it  and I just wasn't feeling good!  So the blog, The world according to eggface, has a TON of recipes for Ice Cream that has protein and sugar free!! YAY!!!  I can't wait to try it out!