How do you 'SEE' yourself? I do not see myself in the correct light, that is for sure! I can SEE the weight loss. I SEE the small number (and no W behind it) on my clothes but when I look in the mirror I still see fat roll here and fat roll there.
I went shopping last night looking for an Easter Dress and after trying on 7 different dresses I decided to give up for the night because I found something very wrong, not with the dress, but with ME in each dress. I am NOT a good judge of what looks good on me.
I have been pretty down on myself lately because I am not where I thought I would be by now but I have no one to blame but myself. I really thought I would be much more toned then I am. Yes, I'm pretty much at goal weight (scale this morning read 153) but I still have ALOT of 'fat' on my body. I really try to tell myself over and over that I am HEALTHY and that is really what matters but I just can't seem to get it out of my head that I want to put clothes on and NOT see a fat roll.
I need to do A LOT more shopping because I have little to no summer clothes for work because what I had last year was all way to big! Again, that plays into I KNOW I have lost the weight. My brain does register that I do not weigh 250lbs anymore but I am still not comfortable in my own skin :(
I went shopping last night looking for an Easter Dress and after trying on 7 different dresses I decided to give up for the night because I found something very wrong, not with the dress, but with ME in each dress. I am NOT a good judge of what looks good on me.
I have been pretty down on myself lately because I am not where I thought I would be by now but I have no one to blame but myself. I really thought I would be much more toned then I am. Yes, I'm pretty much at goal weight (scale this morning read 153) but I still have ALOT of 'fat' on my body. I really try to tell myself over and over that I am HEALTHY and that is really what matters but I just can't seem to get it out of my head that I want to put clothes on and NOT see a fat roll.
I need to do A LOT more shopping because I have little to no summer clothes for work because what I had last year was all way to big! Again, that plays into I KNOW I have lost the weight. My brain does register that I do not weigh 250lbs anymore but I am still not comfortable in my own skin :(
