Hormones

I have never been that emotional of a person. Yes, I have my times just like any one else but this is getting out of hand!  I knew that having a drastic/fast weight loss was going to really effect my hormones but damn it, I'm sick of crying already! LOL

I have been under A LOT of stress with this move, commute, buying house, starting new job, etc. but it's nothing that I can't handle.  I am a very strong person and I usually thrive better when put under a lot of pressure but I totally broke yesterday.  I cried almost all the way home :(  I guess I just needed to let it out but ugh, no more!

I sit here and think back through my journey thus far and this isn't the first time "I broke".  When I lost my wallet back in Jan, I totally broke then as well and I really didn't understand at the time why I was so emotional over it.  Yeah, it SUCKED and I was PISSED but why was I crying and So upset about it.  It's all because of these damn CRAZY HORMONES!

Scale Victory!

The best scale victory to date!  Weighed in at 169.8 this morning! YAY!  I haven't been in the 160s since 2003!  I'm also really shocked that I lost 4lbs this week! It hasn't been the best week of food choices while I was traveling but it does go to show just how much my sleeve does help me! I LOVE MY SLEEVE!

6 Month Pictures

6 Months

WOW, 6 months since surgery!! Where has the time gone? It's been a FABLOUS, WONDERFUL, CRAZY 6 months that is for sure! First I must say that I feel WONDERFUL! I haven't felt this good in a really long time. Not only is my weight and health doing so well it just seems that everything in life is falling right inline where it should be. We close on our house in less then two weeks and then my husband will finally be joining me here in MD (hes in NY finishing up the school year) and I LOVE my job (although I'm a little bored! LOL)!

So in the past 6 months I have learned a lot about my sleeve and my "new" self! I am still a work in progess and I'm sure I will be for a long time but at least I am really working on myself. I still have bad days when it comes to my feelings and food but I have learned so much of how I used food as a tool for my emotions and how I CAN'T do that!

I have started (with the help of an AMAZING friend) to change my "style" as well! It's time for it to be more suited to my personality and WEIGHT of course! LOL I've always been that girl that would just hide behind my clothes. Nothing would be form fitting, everything would hang on me, I wouldn't leave the house without my "hold me ins" on! LOL NOW, I'm buying clothes that FIT me, ones the "hug" my body and there are NO MORE "hold me's"! LOL

I have gone from a size 24 bottoms to a size 12 and a 2X top to a L!!! WOOHOOO!!! I know I am still loosing weight and I'm sure my size will move again but I swear even if it doesn't I'M HAPPY at this size!!!

I have my appt. with the new surgeon (since I moved away from my surgeon) next week so hopefully he'll put in for some labs so I can see where I'm at but I bet everything is going to come back just fine since I feel so Great!!

I can't say it enough, this is one of the BEST Thing I have EVER done in my life!!!!!!!

24,22,20,18,16,14,12

O.M.G. I am wearing a size 12!! WOOHOO!!!  It has been a crazy ride these past 5 3/4 months and I kept telling myself that I was probably going to stop at a 14 because that is as small as I can really remember being in my "adult" life.  I know I was a 12 as an adult but I can't remember it.  I was a 10 when I graduated highschool and I was the "big" girl then!  Shoot, I would seriously freak out if I do get into a 10 or lower now as a 30 something old mom!!!

It's really strange though because I have been this weight since I had my daughter almost 7 years ago.  My lowest weight since she was born was 173 and I was 174.6 today but then I was a size 14 and I was so happy then! LOL

It has really hit me today how far I have come.  Just in looking at the numbers.  I was a 2X top (some could have been a 3) and my biggest pants were a 24 but most of them were 22s.  Now I am a Large top and sometimes I do wonder if some I might fit a Medium and my pants are 12s!!  Crazy Awesome Wonderful I tell ya!

I did have what I see as a set back but it was really more a learning expereince last night.  I ate too fast and/or too much and I got sick :(  My first time getting sick and I was SO UPSET about it.  I tend to get down on myself pretty easy but I have such a GREAT friend to help remind me that it was not a set back or a failure but a learning expereince!!