Adjustments

Adjustment is the best word I can think of right now for what I feel I am going through!  Shoot, the past 7 months have been one big adjustment after another since Surgery but again I really feel that I'm going through another "big" one!  I am now back to living with my family and to cook and sit down for dinners together.  I have been eating SO BAD for months now and I think it is finally catching up with me.  I am still a firm believer that I don't want to be "dieting" but just want to eat healthy, enjoy what I can eat and just LIVE life!  I have been neglectful of my protein intake though so that MUST change!  I have also been out of touch with working out and after doing 2 5Ks this past weekend it showed!  Yes, my times were still "normal" for me but if I had been training and working out like I should they should have been better! 

I also haven't made another appointment with the NUT yet :(  She's kind of annoying so I don't know if I want to really deal with her until I get myself back on track!  So far this week things have been good except the scale :(  That dang thing is going to really annoy me this week!  I was up at my weigh in on Monday and so I went ahead and stepped on it on Tue and I was up even more! UGH :(  I have got all my protein in on Mon and Tue and I did a step class last night and I held 2lb weights and did arms throughout the whole 45 min class!! WOOHOO!!  Hurt but felt Great too! LOL

I LOVE to work out but I just have to find the time with my family being here!  I need to make myself get up early and go run because I have to admit, I do miss running!  CRAZY I know! LOL

So I totally feel that I am all over the place, which reading back over this I am! LOL  BUT that is me, I have always been all over the place so just deal with it!

I am happy though, that is for sure!  I am wearing a size 10 pants and a Med top and right now my weight is around 167.  I still want (SO BADLY) to see 150lbs but we'll see what my body has in store for me!  As for my size, I am HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!  I haven't been a size 10 since HIGHSCHOOL!  It's still just so crazy to think that in highschool I was "fat" though at a size 10 and now I am rejoiceing to be this size! LOL

NSV - Non Scale Victory

Well I have had a few NSVs this past weekend and today and I thought I should share.  First was this weekend when I had two formal events.  I got A LOT of compliments (some might be considered inappropriate but I didn't think so! hehe) and I felt SEXY in both of my dresses!  It was a FAN FREAKING TASTIC weekend all together!

Then today I HAD to go buy some work clothes (am down to only two skirts and that is it that fits) and I was able to fit into Size 10 work pants (they usually run SMALL) and Medium shirts/dress!! WOOHOO!!  I swore I wasn't ever going to be in a Med. because I do have tatas and wide shoulers but I fit!!

Here's me in the dresses from this weekend!  The black one is a size 10 but there is no zipper and the other is a size 13 with a zipper!

6 Month Doctor Appointment

So I met my new surgeon today at NNMC Bethesda!  He's pretty cool/nice.  He went ahead and pulled my labs (vitas) so we'll see how they are once they come back!  When he first peaked his head in he quickly asked me what my "deal" was and as he was leaving he looked back and gave me the once over and said I looked Fabulous!  YAY I FEEL FABULOUS!! LOL  So he wants to see me again at 9, 12, 15-18 months and then 2 years and then he figures my yearly well women can cover from there on out! YAY!  He did talk a little about how I just need to continue with eating protein first, then veggies and then carbs which I know and I do TRY to do but I have to admit that I have been eating REALLY bad lately!  I can't wait to be all settled in my home with all MY things so that I can get back into a good routine of eating and working out!

Hormones

I have never been that emotional of a person. Yes, I have my times just like any one else but this is getting out of hand!  I knew that having a drastic/fast weight loss was going to really effect my hormones but damn it, I'm sick of crying already! LOL

I have been under A LOT of stress with this move, commute, buying house, starting new job, etc. but it's nothing that I can't handle.  I am a very strong person and I usually thrive better when put under a lot of pressure but I totally broke yesterday.  I cried almost all the way home :(  I guess I just needed to let it out but ugh, no more!

I sit here and think back through my journey thus far and this isn't the first time "I broke".  When I lost my wallet back in Jan, I totally broke then as well and I really didn't understand at the time why I was so emotional over it.  Yeah, it SUCKED and I was PISSED but why was I crying and So upset about it.  It's all because of these damn CRAZY HORMONES!

Scale Victory!

The best scale victory to date!  Weighed in at 169.8 this morning! YAY!  I haven't been in the 160s since 2003!  I'm also really shocked that I lost 4lbs this week! It hasn't been the best week of food choices while I was traveling but it does go to show just how much my sleeve does help me! I LOVE MY SLEEVE!

6 Month Pictures

6 Months

WOW, 6 months since surgery!! Where has the time gone? It's been a FABLOUS, WONDERFUL, CRAZY 6 months that is for sure! First I must say that I feel WONDERFUL! I haven't felt this good in a really long time. Not only is my weight and health doing so well it just seems that everything in life is falling right inline where it should be. We close on our house in less then two weeks and then my husband will finally be joining me here in MD (hes in NY finishing up the school year) and I LOVE my job (although I'm a little bored! LOL)!

So in the past 6 months I have learned a lot about my sleeve and my "new" self! I am still a work in progess and I'm sure I will be for a long time but at least I am really working on myself. I still have bad days when it comes to my feelings and food but I have learned so much of how I used food as a tool for my emotions and how I CAN'T do that!

I have started (with the help of an AMAZING friend) to change my "style" as well! It's time for it to be more suited to my personality and WEIGHT of course! LOL I've always been that girl that would just hide behind my clothes. Nothing would be form fitting, everything would hang on me, I wouldn't leave the house without my "hold me ins" on! LOL NOW, I'm buying clothes that FIT me, ones the "hug" my body and there are NO MORE "hold me's"! LOL

I have gone from a size 24 bottoms to a size 12 and a 2X top to a L!!! WOOHOOO!!! I know I am still loosing weight and I'm sure my size will move again but I swear even if it doesn't I'M HAPPY at this size!!!

I have my appt. with the new surgeon (since I moved away from my surgeon) next week so hopefully he'll put in for some labs so I can see where I'm at but I bet everything is going to come back just fine since I feel so Great!!

I can't say it enough, this is one of the BEST Thing I have EVER done in my life!!!!!!!