It's Going

Thats about all I can really say about my WL now is that it's going Nowhere which is EXACTLY what I want!!  I have been bouncing around within a few lbs and that is exactly what I want!  I am very happy with my size of clothes and am happy with myself now and I want to stay here!  The other day I had to buy some more work clothes (because I guess I can't do my job effecitivly if I'm wearing jeans??) and I tried on a size 8 skirt and it was loose so I figured what the hey I'll try on a 6!  OMFG It FIT!!!!!!  I know I have said it before but I NEVER thought I would be this size! LOL 

I was looking back through pictures on FB on the other day and seeing all these shots of me before surgery and I see how big I was but I remember that I never really thought of myself as being that big but I really was!  I am SO HAPPY to be where I am now and I hope I can maintain this forever!!

Maintaining?

So now it's time to maintain my weight but I am not 100% sure how to do that?  I hit my goal weight and then bounced right back up 5lbs and then slowly came back now and now today I'm at my lowest yet of 149.2.  I had some friends comment on how "Skinny" I was now and how I may be losing too much weight.  I don't know what to think about this?  I feel good and I feel like I still have curves but these ladies opinions do matter to me, they are just honest friends!  I don't want to be too skinny and I am happy with my current size clothes so I really just need to figure out this maintaining thing! The other problem is I am now anemic again :(  The doc called today and I have to start of supplements again! BOO  I just hope I can get it under control quickly.

A week in my Sleeve

So hubby and I were talking about WLS and how it is needed by some people but many people really just need to find a way to change their brain and way of thinking about food and exercise.  SO, in order to see how easy or hard it may be Shane is going to eat Exactly what I eat for 1 week!  Starting tomorrow (Wednesday) I am going to make him breakfast, lunch and dinner and he will eat exactly what I eat!  My normal day looks a little like this,
B - 3/4 C Special K Cereal with 1/2 C 1% Milk
L - 3.5oz of Ham
D - 2 egg omelet with 2 slices of bacon or 1 sausage link and 1/4 C of cheese

I also drink about 120oz of water, 3 C of coffee and 1 Diet Soda!

I know my husband is "strong" enough to handle this but he is going to be a Grouch! LOL  The final of all of this is TDay dinner where he can eat whatever he wants!! LOL

1 Year

This past year has been Crazy, Wonderful, Insane, Amazing and I wouldn't change it for anything! One year ago today I made the choice to change my life (and mind and body) forever! I have made some pretty awesome choices in my short 33 years thus far but this is without a doubt one of the Best choices I have made (besides Husband and Daughter!) I feel like even though I may not be happy with my job or whatever I am so happy to just being living as ME! The ME that deep down inside I knew was there but just had a hard time finding her. I was given this gift and I have used it to my advantage everyday in order to find that "skinny" girl inside me! I do still have my moments where I don't mentally feel like I'm thin and honestly I still feel FAT, very fat It makes me very sad when sit here and think about how I feel in those moments because looking in the mirror just proves that I am far from fat! But I know that I do not see the same person in the mirror that others see when they look at me. I have been called "skinny" by others recently (those I'm not close with) and it's very surprising to me that people do think that when they see me because again, I do not see that! I do see/feel Healthy and that is really what it was all about! I want to live a long Happy life and being obese wasn't going to get me that!
Some of you may know that I didn't come into this decision all by myself. A very large part of my choice was because it was supposed to be my husband and I both doing it and then in the end he didn't do it. I still wish ALL THE TIME that he would have so that he can feel the same amount of JOY that I feel in being so healthy but I do have  faith that he will evently get there. But even though I didn't choose this 100% for me in the very begining it is ALL about me Now! LOL

GOAL!!!

WOOHOO!!  GOAL Weight Today!!!  11 months and 3 weeks and I'm There!!!  There were so many days that I really didn't know if I would make it here or not but I Did It!!!!  It's such a FANTASTIC feeling that I can't even describe! LOL

I went from 250.8lbs to 150.8lbs in less then a year!  Size 24W (wide LOL) pants to a size 8 and a 2-3XL top to a Med, ring size 9-10 to a 6-7ish (don't know for sure yet) and even my shoe size went down partially because I don't need a Wide one anymore! HEHE

Now, how do I reward myself?? LOL  I have learned that food is Not a reward so I think I need to Shop! hehe

I was Runnin'

So a BIG part of my WL has been exercise and speifically Running/jogging/walking!  This weekend Sarah got me to sign up for a Race in the middle of the night.  The whole thing was about how you started at 1:50am and then the clocks change back at 2:00am so you get a Negative time on your race!  The charity was for Wounded Warriors so I was in!  When I got to the race in the middle of the night last night there was a Great Surprise for me, SARAH!  She flew in to spend time with friends and come run the race! YAY!  Well then after she came home with me last night to crash for just a short minute we decided to run/walk a race this morning!  This mornings race was my first 8K!! WOOHOO!!  Grated, I didn't run it, we walked pretty much the whole thing but it was so Great to spend time with Sarah catching up on everything that been happening over the last few months! 
I am CRAZY sore after running a 5K and walking an 8K but I feel FAN FREAKING TASTIC for doing it!!!

24.8

24.8 is my BMI!!!!!!!  OMFG I can't believe that according to the doctors charts I now have a NORMAL BMI!  I went from having a 39.9 BMI which is considered Class 2 Obesity and only like a pound away from being Morbidly Obese and depending on who you talked to they would just say I was Morbidly obese but not anymore!!!!  I seriously don't remember the last time I was a "Normal" weight according to any doctor or chart (probably like 8th grade!)  It's an AMAZING feeling and I want to continue to feel this way for the rest of my life!!!!